I’m 28 in a few weeks and I’m p****d off. The only good thing in my life is my fiancee. I’ve grown apart from my friends and don’t talk to them anymore, I live in a different city from my family and have went from being the blue eyed boy of the family to the black sheep and it kinda hurts.
My gran is dying of cancer, she’s only got weeks left and to be honest I wish it was sooner. Probably terrible to think but she’s in terrible pain and hasn’t been happy since my grandfather died last year. She’s been depressed since he left and now spends most of her time on powerful painkillers that knock her loopy. The sooner she’s in a better place beside him I’ll be happy for her. I love her and I will miss her but I wish her pain was over and I could feel happy for her again.
There’s not much I can do about any of this but I’m fed up being this person. I wanna be something else and I’m gonna try and change my life. I’m not 100% sure how to go about it but I’m gonna give it a go, why can’t I be the person I want to be. I’m fed up watching tv and hearing these f***ing idiots telling us how they took their chances and blah, blah, blah. What they did that we couldn’t and we just have to buy their albums, watch their movies and then watch them spend our money. Why can’t they help people with our money…why can’t we help people with our money?
If you could do something to change your life what would you do or are you happy and why?
