I think I’m probably about to go off on one, so apologies in advance. I just need to vent some steam before I explode.
You probably know I’ve been seeing this guy Alex at work. My boss, in fact. That’s not the problem. I’m completely and utterly crazy about him. I love him. And I can say without a doubt in my mind that he loves me too. We go really well together, have loads in common, and enjoy spending time together. Fine so far, and to start with everything was fantastic.
The problem comes in the form of his ex-girlfriend. An ex who for the last few months has been making life a misery for all concerned. When they split up, she was upset obviously but reasonably OK with it. He started seeing me on a regular basis, and then out of the blue she went completely fruitloops.
Really bad. Decided that she wanted him back and give it another go, despite her having made him miserable for about three years whilst they were going out. Now from all accounts she wasn’t the most stable person to begin with, and this turn of events sent her off cutting herself again, threatening to kill herself.
At this point, Alex is being made to feel guilty about the whole thing, it being his fault that they split up. He decides that it might be for the best to keep away from us both for a bit, and tries, but can’t manage it. We’re too attracted to each other to stop.
And basically she’s been getting worse and worse. Pestering him all the time with texts and phone calls, demanding that he stop seeing me. She’s gone through his PC and his phone. Forbiddedn him from gaming on the same server as me. She’s started looking me up on the net trying to find out ways to get hold of me and warn me off him. She’s throwing tantrums and tears around like there’s nobody’s business.
If Alex were a heartless b@stard, he’d just tell her to get lost. But he’s not. They’ve known each other a long time and are friends. He doesn’t want to keep hurting her, and she’s unbelievably cut up over this whole thing. Can’t take it at all. So right now he can’t see me. I can’t go over to his place, he can’t come to mine. But she’s over there most evenings, and whilst they aren’t sleeping together, I want to scream at the injustice of it all.
I’m really angry at her and at the world in general. I find someone that makes me happy and who is happy with me, and a spanner gets thrown in the works. I’m also petrified that I’m going to lose him. She knows that he doesn’t love her any more, but she’s still desperately trying to cling on to it and I don’t know what the hell to do about the whole thing. She gives him no amount of grief, and he’s feeling as miserable as sin.
So yeah. I’m not happy right now. Sorry for the rant.
