Hi all,
Im looking for some help regarding careers.
Id really like to work with Flash but i dont think i have the skills and im too scared to go for a developer job because i feel out of my depth.
I had a complex pensions job when i was a bit younger, i got 2 hours training and was supposed to answer peoples questions and administer changes and it gave me a shock because even though i tried, my boss just made an ******* out of me… i understand that particular role should have had 6 weeks training in London but i was never put on that course… I ended up just telling the boss to fu…
I went to uni and i worked for sony full time instead of my final year because of money constraints but the city i lived in, my landlord was dodgy and he bailed leaving me in a bunch of legal hassles and i never managed to find a new place to live so i ended up having to move home.
I have been applying for everything over the past 4 weeks, i need career job, but im getting no where. 2 Replies out of about 50 jobs and they were to say i was unsuccessful.
When jobs ask “must know C++” “must know SQL, PHP, Actionscript 3.0” “Microsoft server, exchange…” etc… how do you know when you know you know something? I mean no one at univeristy truely “knew” anything. You have modules in different languages such as java, but making a clock in java does not mean you “know java”.
I have heard stories in the past of people getting greeat jobs just by lying. A dude i know is on 140 quid a day as a server engineer, but when he applied for the job, he didnt even know what a server was…
I feel as though im too good and dont fit into the minimum wage group because i dont really get on with people… well, i try to but unless im going out at break time to take coke with the rest of the warehouse staff, then your kind of outcast as a goody goody…
On the other foot, i feel really out of my leage applying for jobs in IT because of what i was saying before.
My friends for the last few years always ask me why i dont just work with computers because i always solve problems, i used to teach my uni class actionscript 2.0 after lessons on a thursday and one of the girls i used to teach… who was blown away by “play()” and “stop()” managed to get a flash development job…
I feel really lost. Its a mix of lack of confidense, not really knowing what to do, and pressure to do something with my life from Family but more importantly myselfl. When i try to talk to recruitment agencies ,they just basically blank me. I wrote a big email asking for guidance and this morning got a standard “we have your cv, we wil contact you if any suitable stuff comes up” which it never does.
In all reality, im not working for the minum wage, lifting bits of wood all day, or stacking box’s for the rest of my life but i would happily work for the minimum wage in a IT role, so long as i can use my brains for once and work with computers which is what i like best.
Where do you begin looking for work and how do you market yourself? Do you lie?
When you get a job as something new for the first time, do you get adequate support and training? I mean, i have been really into AS3 for the past 4 months but im scared of getting a job with actionscript and on first day, monday morning, being told to sit down and program a game… i couldnt just do that off the boat because i wouldnt know if i was doing it right and i dont even know what standard the majoirty of peoplee are.
How many people know PHP, XML, Actionscript 3, mySQL, .NET, etc etc etc and are confident in them all? Not im doubting it, just wondering.
Any help you could give me would be great because i feel really crappya bout myself and im really dying to get somewhere. I wish i could even just work with other actionscript developers so i could chat in jargon to them as opposed to book after book like i do just now.
Id do free work experience but i mean, food aint free, neither is rent…
I wish i just had a break coz theres only so much personal torment ya can take, if im gonna work for 5 quid an hour for the rest of my life then to be fair, id just rather be dead just now and save the hassle.
Any guidance would be great.
Thanks.
