haha an excellent point. And yah life can get much worse, and I have it all great and blah blah blah… 
The worst part of all of it was that she is extremely cool. With the greatest sense of humour ever. And she makes me very happy, and I have been depressed, well I’d say my entire life. I can Not stop smiling around her and it’s sorta scary cause I don’t want to jsut grin like an idiot but at the same time, she’s smiling and laughing too, somehow I don’t feel as stupid about it. We’ve even had staring contests a couple times. We both have trouble with it, but I just can not keep a straight face with her, and I can keep a pretty straight face usually, I’m good with that sorta humour a lot…
all that to say, that’s why it was bad. Mostly I was worried we couldn’t even be friends like before any more, but I guess we can. And I’ll just wait a bit and see what happens.