Over the past few years my sleeping schedule has been pretty sketchy, some nights i’ll sleep long and sleep well, but most nights i find myself either not sleeping at all, or getting very little sleep, one to two hours. Also over the years i’ve also acquired a profound love for being tired, it sounds quite oposite of what is the norm so i’m just wondering if anybody else finds insomnia to some extent enjoyable.
Don’t get me wrong, sleep has its time and place, but most of the time a good night’s sleep for me is once every week, sometimes a month. During school i find myself sleeping less and less, with all the homework i have to do, and also i have to have time for my recreational computer usage and other stuff i do. Sometimes during school i get around 2 hours of sleep, no exageration there. I realize sleep is essential to living, and living well, but i find that sleep deprivation brings out a profound creativity that i wouldn’t have otherwise. Also a strange euphoric feeling, when i’m walking around outside at 2am or listening to music, something i’ve found myself enjoying more and more. Its hard to describe, but i’ll try anyways.
Its seems to relieve stress and break tension for me, sometimes i find myself feeling anxious out in public, like feeling like everybody is watching me, i’m sure people have felt it now and then, but it happens quite often for me, once a week or so. So when its late at night, and i’m outside, it feels great, knowing no one in the whole world is watching me, knowing i could dance in the street if i wanted to and not feel the least bit lame about it. I find the flow of thought comes in steady streams instead of short bursts.
Anybody else get the same kind of feeling?
