Thanks pretty deep dude, and I appreciate the fact you hope things change for me.
I must say I give you a TON of credit, staying by your girl after she cheated on you is amazing in my eyes. To be honest, I’m not sure how and why you did. I guess maybe because in my situation she didn’t give me the option of staying around. She called me one day and word for word said
"How’s it feel to know I’ve been screwing (name which I won’t say), let’s call him Bill, for the past 4 months.
Bill actually become somewhat of a friend to me, he used to come out with us to bars, clubs, etc, along with some of her other college buddies. It’s sick because I actually started to like the kid. When I found out that he was sleeping with her, I honestly didn’t know what to do or say. My first instinct was to hurt them both, and badly. I acted upon that instinct and began drive down to her campus with a car full of buddies of mine.
Luckily my best friend who was there and who was driving, made this instinct impossible because he only hopped on the highway to talk (I didn’t know that he had no intention of going to her school). After talking he turned the car around and headed home.
I thank him everyday for this because sad to say, I would have done something real bad :(. It hurt me a lot as I know you can understand.
This happened about 18 months ago. To be honest it began the low point in my life. I didn’t care about anything, and couldn’t get her out of my mind. It was real bad dude.
About 3 months ago I could finally say I’'m truly over it. Yes it still hurts, but I learned to forgive her, and wish her the absolute best in life, relationships, etc.
Sadly, it changed my outlook on a lot of things. For one, family and true friends will always be there. Girls come and go. There is no point in driving yourself mad over a boyfriend or girlfirend. It’s just not worth. At the same time I don’t feel it’s worth investing time and feelings into a relationship, for now anyway. I’m 23 years old, and don’t plan on getting marrried anytime soon. Therefor I will like I said before, do whatever I want. It’s a real bad outlook but I can’t help that now.
Ethan, sorry if I kind of went off on personal issues, didn’t mean to highjack the thread.
And Adam, I admire you, and wish you the very best, hope all works out for you. Just keep in mind dude, make sure your partner respects you man, because everyone deserves nothing less.